Life is a strange and extraordinary journey. Each of us moves at our own pace, facing unique problems, joys, and discoveries. My story is only one among many, yet it has led me into special spaces where reality blends with dreams, and beings from different levels of existence naturally flow into everyday life.

As a person I often feel as though I am walking through several worlds at once. I am constantly learning, growing, and trying to understand what is truly happening in our shared reality. In the pages that follow, I share my experiences — a tapestry of dramatic events, detective-like turns, the mysteries of a dream kingdom, and deep existential insights.

This is a story in which the search for truth becomes a daily necessity, revealing real dangers to humanity where we least expect them. I hope it brings you new understanding or inspires you to look at life more widely. But I must warn you: this “detective drama” can be intense — it spans a wide spectrum of themes and emotions. If your nerves are not steady, treat it as an unfinished manuscript, a forming myth that future generations may one day read to learn how things once were.

A witness to the world’s wounds

Working as a healer, I find myself at the intersection of the darkest wounds and the brightest miracles of our planet. I feel a duty to protect the vulnerable, so I see both breathtaking beauty and profound suffering. Still, I believe that with time and shared effort, what is usually hidden can be revealed — allowing healing to begin. If my words can offer anything, let it be a spark that lights the way or gives comfort to those who need it.

Childhood dreams and the first awakening

My early memories are like hazy mirages: dreams intertwine with strange sensations before I could even understand reality. In those dreams, enormous structures would pulse and change — one moment appearing immense, the next moment tiny. It felt like an infinite space whose logic I couldn’t grasp, yet it fascinated me completely.

The first vivid realization came when, as a small child, I hid behind a box and watched my mother search for me. I understood that she could only see what her gaze was aimed at. It felt deeply unfair — I had believed adults were supposed to see and know everything. That moment shattered my naïve belief in adult omniscience.

Encounters with deception — and with computers

Another important lesson was deception. Neighborhood kids invited me to play, but soon I realized they had no intention of playing. The lie felt like a betrayal not only of me, but of my whole familiar world.

It was then that I discovered computers — a refuge of logic and predictability. An MS-DOS machine belonging to my uncle opened a new space, where everything was consistently defined, and I desperately wanted to understand it.

Although my uncle — a wonderful person whom I considered the smartest in the world — had many awards and hundreds of scientific articles, but great intelligence does not guarantee financial stability. We always supported each other, even though we met rarely; I was constantly busy and rarely found time for people.

Realizing that communicating with this new companion would require English, I learned the alphabet both in my native language and in English.

I want to share how my misunderstanding with my environment began and how my first independent steps formed. When I started first grade, I could already write in two languages — but in printed letters. The teacher’s first task was to learn cursive, so I turned in work written in print. Classmates didn’t know what they were seeing, and the teacher was confused. That moment — when I didn’t fit the usual norms — became a spark that pushed me toward independent learning, and that hunger only grew.

Early responsibility and independence

I took on adult responsibilities earlier than most. In a country where the minimum wage was low, our family would bring in only about 170 euros per month, so I worked to help until I finished school. I pursued perfection in every job, dividing the day into precise schedules. It was a hard routine, but it planted an unbreakable hunger for knowledge and self-development.

I remember a classmate teasing me because my shoes were dirty from yesterday’s work. For a moment I felt awkward, but it strengthened my resolve. Even today I often choose sturdy, practical shoes — comfort matters more than fashion. My life is still a balance of learning, work, and growth, rarely leaving free time.

A journey of knowing — and further still

Growing up, I devoted every free minute to studies. I joined various organizations, connected with high-intellect communities, and traveled widely. I crossed my home country by bicycle, walked through large parts of Europe with a backpack, hitchhiked across mountains, and helped organize hundreds of seminars and events. Some of these adventures were described in newspapers and online portals.

I’m not sure if I should share this…

Then I took an IQ test for the first time, wanting to join an international community that required a certain score to enter. I scored 127 — well above the minimum — but the joy was quickly replaced by dread. I was young and naïve: I believed the world was full of all-knowing geniuses who would take care of things, teach, and guide. But the results and the distribution of intelligence showed something else. Instead of pride, I felt… I don’t even know how to name it. From then on, I devoted every free moment to studying, trying to fill an unexpected gap. Maybe one day I will feel smarter.

For now, I consider myself the least knowledgeable person. Strangely, it’s easier to live that way — if I’m already “stupid,” who cares? Then I can ask anything, learn everything, and try anything without fear. There is so much to learn: the more — and the faster — I can learn, the better.

My thirst for knowledge led me through Mathematics and Physics into Chemistry, Biology, and Geology. Mineralogy and Gemology revealed Earth’s hidden treasures. Astronomy and astrophysics carried me to the stars. Biophysics and Biomedicine helped connect the laws of living systems with the laws of the universe. I delved into Engineering and Robotics, and eventually into Theoretical Physics and Environmental Engineering, seeking to understand and protect our shared planet.

A long journey into the living dream

Exploring the intersection of science, nature, and spirit, I discovered what I call the “living dream.” Here, nature spirits and scientific wonder coexist, revealing hidden layers of reality through the prism of energy. It expanded my awareness, awakening sensitivity to both visible and invisible beings.

Dreams became teachers, inviting me to look at every being with respect and empathy — even those without a physical body. Some longed for human companionship, others were kind helpers, and still others were shy, reflecting the same caution I feel when forming new connections.

Paradise on the road

Even after such long journeys and getting to know the world in so many different ways, strangely, I encountered almost no malice — except for one gas station employee who wouldn’t allow restroom use unless something was purchased, which, honestly, is understandable.

I became convinced that people are fundamentally good. Even across big differences, we lived peacefully, helping one another. This taught me that every living being — visible or not — deserves respect and compassion.

The reality of peace and the road ahead

When the hunger for travel quieted, I refocused on work, studies, and exploring dreams. I planned my days carefully, life felt idyllic — until a minor injury forced me to slow down, right when COVID-19 stopped the whole world. While recovering alone, the days were wrapped in silence and calm.

But that calm was temporary. Returning to the wider world, I sensed the start of a new chapter — one that will require new dedication, insight, and healing. Wherever the road leads, I will continue exploring the edges of our shared reality, guided by curiosity, empathy, and a firm belief that we are creators — unique sparks of an infinite universe, connected by love.

Paradise, reality, and new goals

Paradise faded, and returning to the human world became the beginning of a new chapter — one in which we will have to face the shadow of corruption, a force that can take root in each of our hearts…