A place to come home to.

A place to come home to.

A diary page · Before the long pause

A place for us.

From the first coin to the stars.

HOME

An empty field beside the forest. A home where we can live together. A solar factory. A university in nature. And, one day, our Knowledge Ark above the Earth.

A future I would like to build with you
An imagined future. It would begin with much less — a field, a few tools, and somewhere to start.

Before I leave this diary quiet for a while, I want to write down the whole picture — not only what I would build, but the life I hope could grow inside it.

I have written about learning, healing, building, fixing things, and finding people with whom life could become something more. Those thoughts may seem to point in different directions. But when I follow them far enough, they keep arriving at the same place.

A piece of land beside a forest. A home. A workshop with the lights on. People arriving with their bags, their questions, their skills, and ideas I would never have thought of alone.

Buy land. Build an HQ. Build homes.
Generate our own electricity.
Build the machines that help us build more.

Then keep following the idea. From the first coin I earn to the day we are standing together, looking up at something we built in orbit.

I want a place for us to meet, live, learn, and build together. And I want to see how far we could go from there.

01 BEGIN
The first coin

Give the money somewhere to grow.

After selling my healing services to someone, I would put the money back into building the future I keep writing about. Earnings from my stores, writing, creative work, and the projects that follow would move in the same direction.

After covering what I need to live and keep the work going, I would set aside what I could for something lasting. Those earnings would accumulate into land, materials, equipment, and the means to begin.

I imagine looking at a payment and seeing what it might become: a window in someone’s room. A machine in our workshop. The roof under which we sit down to dinner.

Years later, I would like to walk through the place and remember. That job helped buy these tools. Those orders helped build this workshop. That project helped make room for someone to stay.

Little pieces of my work, becoming a place large enough for other people to bring theirs.

02 LAND
The field becomes a beginning

First, there would be a field.

No finished campus. No laboratory waiting behind a glass door. No row of warm houses with everything already connected. Just open ground beside a forest, grass moving in the wind, and somewhere to imagine where the first path might go.

The first things would be simple: somewhere dry to keep tools, a workbench, a small place to live, and a table where we could spread out our drawings.

I can see the early workshop. Parts on shelves. Frames waiting to be assembled. Motors, cables, and tools gathered gradually. An engine arriving in pieces. Someone cleaning a component while someone else works out what can be repaired and what is still missing.

Some parts would not fit. Some attempts would fail. Someone more experienced would show us a better way. And then, one day, a machine would run. What had been separate pieces would help us move material, shape a component, or build the next structure.

The first machines would help us build the place. The place would help us build better machines.

I would keep photographs of those days. Years later, we could stand in the same spot and remember the grass, the pile of parts, and the drawing. The field would have changed. I would want the forest to still feel close.

03 HOME
A home for the people building it

Come live here. Let’s build together.

The homes belong in the picture from the beginning. Warm rooms, privacy, gardens, somewhere to cook together, and a shared headquarters where a conversation can become a project.

I would invite builders, engineers, programmers, researchers, artists, growers, and makers. People with experience to share. People with questions. People still discovering what they love. People who have carried an idea for years and would finally have somewhere to put it on a workbench.

Some might visit. Some might stay for a project. Others might decide to make their home here. I would live here too — through the muddy paths, unfinished mornings, ordinary chores, and everything that comes after the first excitement.

Not a workplace with somewhere to sleep.
A home with room to create.

This is where the Fix It list would get a front door. I want to build towards a place that makes the basics easier, instead of leaving each person to solve them alone.

Free housing. Free electricity.
Shared tools. Room to learn, create, rest, and live.

A home without rent

Privacy, warmth, a room of your own, and somewhere to put down your things and settle.

Everyday electricity, covered

Our own generation and supporting systems, built to cover essential needs without a separate bill for each resident.

Shared foundations

Water, sanitation, internet, gardens, and shared meals, developed and cared for alongside the homes.

Space to learn and make

Knowledge, tools, workspaces, and people who can help each other understand something new.

Free to the person would not mean the costs disappear. Our work and businesses would need to cover maintenance, food, materials, services, and reserves, as well as the next building. We would make room for more people as we became able to support them well.

And living together would still leave room for separate lives: doors people can close, quiet, different rhythms, disagreement, and the freedom to choose what comes next. I would not want every hour of a person’s life to need a useful result attached to it.

04 PATH
The solar factory

Let’s see what we can do.

First, solar panels on a roof. Then larger installations, storage, and the systems that make the electricity useful throughout the place.

But I do not want the picture to stop at buying panels. Further along this road, I see a solar factory of our own.

A factory producing solar panels and the equipment around them, growing from assembly into more of the manufacturing as our knowledge and resources develop. A place where we could improve designs, make replacement parts, and build energy systems for ourselves and others.

In the future I picture, sunlight helps power the machines making the next generation of solar equipment. Those installations help power more homes, more workshops, and more production. Useful work supports the people doing it and makes the next stage possible.

I want to stand on that factory floor with people who live here and watch a new batch take shape. Some of it would go onto the next homes on our land. Some would go to customers whose purchases help fund another production line, another workshop, another beginning.

From the first panel on a roof to a factory sending panels out into the world.

That is the scale of growth I have in mind. Not everything arriving at once, but each step giving us more ability to take the next.

05 LEARN
University in Nature

The university would have a forest outside.

This is how I imagine University in Nature: a living place where learning, research, practical creation, and everyday life meet.

Someone could read about a mechanism in the Knowledge Ark, walk into the workshop, and examine one. A programmer could see their code move a machine. An engineer could help solve a problem in the greenhouse. Someone learning about soil could step straight into the garden.

We would document what we tried, what failed, and what finally worked. The knowledge would not have to stay inside our buildings. Someone on the other side of the world could use a lesson from our workshop, notice something we missed, and send a better idea back.

There would be things I could teach and far more I could learn. I want to be around people who understand what I do not, ask questions I have not considered, and enjoy working through a difficult problem together.

I like the thought of spending an afternoon on something ambitious and walking into the forest afterwards. The view from a laboratory could include a garden. The people discussing an experiment could also be the people sharing dinner.

06 MAKE
Machines that help us build further

Engines like LEGO pieces.

Follow the workshop and factory forward, and I see larger manufacturing halls, laboratories, robotics, and teams designing equipment we once had to buy. Machines making parts for other machines. Lessons from one project becoming better ways to build the next.

Then I see a different assembly hall. Engine modules on stands. Structures ready for integration. Power systems, computers, and components designed to work together. People moving between them with the familiarity of a team that knows what every piece is there to do.

I imagine us putting engines and spacecraft systems together like LEGO pieces for our own space station.

That is the feeling I mean: well-designed modules, understood connections, parts we can assemble, test, replace, and improve. A great deal of knowledge and careful engineering made into something a team can keep building upon.

Engines for the vehicles carrying our work upward. Transport systems to deliver it. Station modules that could become laboratories, workspaces, and living quarters. With the right people, resources, and proper facilities, even a launch site could belong to a later chapter, safely separated from the homes.

The same instinct that brought the first engine together on our workbench, carried into far more demanding work.

“Come have a look.
The next module is ready.”

I want to imagine a day when someone says that quite naturally.

07 COSMOS
Our own space station

Our Knowledge Ark, orbiting the Earth.

I see us gathered around a screen in the headquarters, watching a launch. Some people are still in their work clothes. They recognise the hardware. They remember the drawings, the revisions, and the afternoon a difficult problem finally made sense.

Then I imagine our station taking shape above the Earth. A structure we helped design and build, with power, rooms, instruments, and somewhere for people to work. Another module joining it. More space to learn what becomes possible there.

The Knowledge Ark would be more than something we read. I would like it to become something we build and inhabit too: an orbital home for learning and research, connected to the university, workshops, and people below.

Our university in nature.
Our Knowledge Ark in orbit.
One shared story, still growing.

Down here, beside the forest, someone would still be tending the garden. Someone would be preparing dinner. A new person would be arriving with a bag, a skill, and an idea.

From parts on a table to a station above the Earth, I want us to recognise the same story: people coming together and learning how to build further.

08 TOGETHER
A shared world

From our shared place to a world working together.

I would not want all of this to depend forever on my energy, my income, or my decisions. The people who help create the place should have a real voice in it. The work should be able to continue when I need to step back.

And it would not have to remain one ever-growing settlement. We could share what we learned so others could build something suited to their own land, their own community, and their own lives.

Another home. Another workshop. Another place beginning with knowledge we did not have at the start. Factories helping equip new factories. Teams helping other teams get going.

The stores, the writing, the digital meeting places, and the practical projects could become parts of that shared effort. A conversation online could become a visit. A visit could become a project. Someone who first knew us through a screen could one day be sitting at our table.

From our shared place to a united world working together. That is the larger direction I would like this to grow in: more people able to learn, make, and build a life, with useful knowledge travelling further than any one of us could.

When I say “forever,” I imagine leaving something worth continuing — a home, a body of knowledge, and a beginning that someone else does not have to build from nothing.

Before the pause · A place to return to

This is where I want the work to lead.

This will probably be the last page in this diary series before a long pause. I do not know when the next chapter will be ready to write. For now, I want to leave the whole picture here, then give my time to the work, learning, and living that could move it forward.

The field beside the forest. The first engine coming together from parts. Homes with lights in their windows. A factory making solar panels. People assembling spacecraft systems. Our Knowledge Ark, above the Earth.

And through every stage, the life between the buildings: friendship, quiet mornings, shared meals, and plans that become larger because we are no longer making them alone.

I would like to stay with this idea long enough to see it become ordinary life. To look out of a window and see someone crossing the garden on their way to the workshop. To hear people talking in the kitchen. To know there is somewhere for us to return to after exploring the world.

One day, I would like to stop saying, “Imagine this place.”
And open the door instead.
“Come in. I’m glad you’re here.”

From the first coin to the stars.
At my home. With you.
A place for us all.
Maybe forever. 💜

— Linas Juozėnas

P.S. HEART
Where my heart leads

The healer’s path.
The path of my heart.

There is one more thing I want to leave here. This place would be our common ground — somewhere to gather, begin things together, and return to after our lives have taken us in different directions. Everyone would be welcome. Some would put down roots. Some would arrive for a season. Some would spend years elsewhere and come back with stories. There would be room for all of those ways of belonging.

My own path is in magic and healing. It is the path of my heart. For me, that means months of sustained focus and active practice just to begin — a commitment that reaches into every waking hour and even into sleep and dreams. And beginning is not the end of the work. It continues day by day, hour by hour: paying attention, learning, practicing, and doing. It is not simply something I want to fit into the spaces left over after everything else.

That is also why I want to help build a place that can grow without needing me at the center of every decision. A shared home where other people can follow their own work, and where I can give myself to mine.

My heart might lead me away for years at a time. To other countries, other homes, other ways of living. I would want to live among people, not only pass through: share the meals, learn the rhythms of their days, listen to their stories, and discover what life feels like from where they stand. Sometimes I might stay much longer than I expected. Sometimes the road would call again.

And somewhere in the more futuristic part of that dream, I picture a nuclear-powered, six- or eight-wheeled expedition van — a little home on wheels for a very long journey. Driving around the world, taking the roads that draw me onward, carrying enough of home with me to stay where my heart asks me to stay.

I imagine parking high in the mountains just to be there. Watching the light move across the peaks. Letting the noise fall away. Opening myself to the visions of the spirits of that place, to the encounters I seek through my spiritual practice. Not every journey would need to become a project. Sometimes being there would be the reason.

And all the while, somewhere beside that forest, our shared home would still be alive. People from around the world would be building, learning, expanding the workshops, putting up another home, and bringing ideas I could never have imagined alone. The HQ would not be an empty building waiting for me to return. It would be full of people living their own lives.

Then, one day, I would turn toward home. There would be new faces at the table, things to show me, stories to hear. I would bring mine. We would gather again, see what had grown, and discover what we might do next.

Our common ground. Our place to gather.
The freedom to follow our hearts — and somewhere to return.

Wherever mine takes me, I would like there to be a road home to you. 💜

P.P.S. STILLNESS
Beneath all the plans

What do I really want?

All I really want is to meditate and give myself to my healing practice.

In meditation, I sometimes feel as though I am floating — dissolving into layers as thin as atoms, my awareness spreading across the planet. Within those experiences, I feel drawn towards places where help might be needed, with the intention of guiding, protecting, and holding others in care. Sometimes these inner journeys feel like invitations to observe and travel. Sometimes I feel taught. Sometimes I feel loved.

The time I want to give that practice is not just an hour between other tasks. I am thinking in months — and, over a lifetime, years.

So perhaps what I need is much simpler than all the plans make it sound: space to be. A room. A kind person nearby. Enough security to put the daily worries aside and devote myself to that practice, without constantly having to rebuild the ground underneath me.

A laptop and a desktop PC. Somewhere comfortable to sleep. Good food. And an all-in-one home gym, because so much meditation, rest, and computer work means spending a great deal of time in one place. I would like to be able to move and look after my body without needing to travel elsewhere every time.

That is part of why a van appeals to me — or, in the more version of the dream, that nuclear-powered expedition truck. It could bring so much of this together: a little home, the freedom to travel, and somewhere to stay when I find a place I want to know. I would like the journeys to be useful to others too, with time for meditation and healing practice when I am parked and settled.

But the life I want does not have to be on wheels. I could simply be living with someone in a city. I have spent much of my life almost alone. My town has around a thousand people, yet my own experience of life here has often felt solitary.

Living among people who are used to enjoying one another’s company would be a new experience for me. Friends nearby. An invitation to come over. A shared meal, an ordinary evening, someone dropping by. A city of millions, made cosy by the people we know and love — people close enough to visit, spend time together, and become part of one another’s everyday lives.

A cosy little “Mind room.”
People who care for one another.
Somewhere to rest, move, eat, and create.
And time to practise.

I want to explore healing practice for as long as I can. To keep learning, to discover what genuinely helps, and to understand what I still do not know. To see what we might actually do and achieve — and whether something better could grow from it for all of us.

Not everyone has the chance to give decades to a single search. I sometimes think of someone beginning at forty: thirty years of daily practice would take them to seventy. That is a whole stretch of life, and work, bills, responsibilities, and the demands of the world rarely leave it undisturbed.

Having already given so much of my life to this path, I would like to continue — not only for myself, but in the hope of sharing something genuinely useful with others.

Everything else is a way of getting there, somehow.

And then there are the irreplaceable people we love.
They are part of the life I want, too. 💜

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